October 2010
1 post
Close Encounters of the Chosen Kind
I live in a fairly quiet neighborhood in a fairly safe town. The thing is, this fairly safe town has been having a higher frequency of robberies lately, so I’ve been a little nervous whenever I see a van I don’t recognize zip up the dead-end road I live on. Burglars around here have also been known to pose as business people or solicitors, while they knock on a bunch of doors to find...
May 2009
2 posts
I know because my feet have the scars to show.
Sweat and more sweat. There’s a certain dignity to all work, no matter how you slice it. There’s something about the long haul, getting your hands dirty and scraping up your knuckles in the process. It might be the allure of asking questions you never thought to ask before, digging up unseen parts of yourself and throwing them out there into the cold light. No matter what, the fact...
Opening the time capsule.
For the first time in a month I’ve felt okay. Not okay with what happened, not okay with the way things are looking, not okay with myself. Just the feeling for the sake of itself, because, truth be told, it’s been far too long. About a month ago, when I was reading a lot of books on Zen, I remember considering the difference between the relatively tranquil, almost emotionally sterile world of...
March 2009
2 posts
Wake up, the sun is rising without you.
At 5:11 AM my eyes open to a ceiling as dark as the sky. I’m half asleep and half awake, but there’s a sickness in my stomach that reaches all the way down to through the bed and to the floor. It’s that feeling again. That one.
Like any other sentient being with the intellectual capacity to understand a fragment of the horrible stuff that goes on in the world, it’s hard...
When sleep is out of reach.
One more voice in the chorus of millions of voices out there. A angst-ridden scribble of graffiti on the inside of a mall bathroom. Another hand raised in the back of the classroom begging Pick me, pick me… I know it seems pointless to be writing this, but here I am—a squeaky, insignificant opinion in the sea of cyberspace. I offer my humblest regards to the Void.
Let me explain...